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                                <title><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks - Blog Posts]]></title>
                    
                                <subtitle>Developer blog posts by Chrispian H. Burks</subtitle>
                                                    <updated>2025-04-23T14:14:03+00:00</updated>
                        <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[Laravel Filament Tutorial – Customize Login to use LDAP]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/laravel-filament-tutorial-customize-login-to-use-ldap" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/147</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[Customizing Filament’s Login to use LDAP This is a quick rough draft post for how to override the default Filament login and use your own to login with LDAP. Tested With: Notes: I’m using the directorytree/ldaprecord-laravel package in this code, so you’ll need to: Make sure to go star the repo. ]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2024-09-29T21:09:56+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[Take Your Time Getting Healthy – it’s worth it.]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/take-your-time-getting-healthy-its-worth-it" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/148</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[My bloodwork results were mailed yesterday so they could be here as early as today but maybe tomorrow. I know it’s weird but I’m so excited to see just how much I improved. This one was a big jump, so much so my doctors were shocked. I’ve been on this path for 4 years.]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2024-09-28T02:45:21+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[I have severe ADHD. What the hell do I do now?]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/i-have-severe-adhd-what-the-hell-do-i-do-now" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/149</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[I recently hit an age milestone that makes you think a lot about your life. Some of you may recall I had a heart attack. That also gets you thinking. I was diagnosed with ADHD as a child and again in my late 20s / early 30s. I thought I had it pretty under control. ]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2024-09-28T02:45:32+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[Example of how I learn using ChatGPT using an idea from Caleb Porzio, the creator of Livewire and Alpine.js]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/example-of-how-i-learn-using-chatgpt-using-an-idea-from-caleb-porzio-the-creator-of-livewire-and-apline-js" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/150</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[Caleb post a cool idea about date filters in Laravel. I wasn’t sure the best way to do that with the frame work. I’ve used the framework quite a bit but I’m still learning the nuances of how to extend it and make it even more useful for my projects. ]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2024-09-29T19:35:49+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[Reflections: My Time at WebDevStudios]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/reflections-my-time-at-webdevstudios" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/151</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[I’ve been spending the end of this year thinking back on the past to sort of get it out and be done with it. I’m going to be laser focused on the future in 2023 but I wanted to wrap up 2022 with some thoughts about the past.]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2024-09-29T19:36:24+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[Heart & Health Update 2022]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/heart-health-update-2022" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/152</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[ALL FUCKING GOOD! It’s been almost exactly 3 yers since my brush with the Widow Maker and I’ve been reflecting a log this year on life, goals and health. During May and June I had my yearly bloodwork, nuclear stress test and heart echo. ]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2024-09-29T19:37:10+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[Building My First App]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/building-my-first-app" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/153</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[I’ve been toying with the idea of building an app for quite a while. I’ve dabbled in various parts of it for projects over the years and I generally know how it all fits together. But I’m not a front end engineer by any stretch so this will be a bit of a learning curve.]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2024-09-29T19:37:30+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[New Year – New Job!]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/new-year-new-job" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/154</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[It seems like I only blog when I have big changes. I really need to work on that. But today I’m writing here again because I have a big change. Today is my last day at my current job working on Blue Summit Supplies while working at Franklin Creative Solutions.]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2024-09-29T19:37:58+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[Just Deal With it]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/just-deal-with-it" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/155</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[I’m not sure I have a point with this blog post but just really wanting to acknowledge some things to remind myself that everything I’m experiencing is normal. Erin and I have had a rough time for most of or marriage. We’ve thankfully been rock solid together, though it’s caused some stress here and there.]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2024-09-28T02:46:47+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[Where ever you go, there you are [Stoicism]]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/where-ever-you-go-there-you-are-stoicism" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/156</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[The Best Retreat Is In Here, Not Out There People seek retreats for themselves in the country, by the sea, or in the mountains. You are very much in the habit of yearning for those same things. ]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2024-09-29T19:38:22+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[The Next Chapter]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/the-next-chapter" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/157</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[Last week was my last week at WebDevStudios. I was working on the support side of the house in the Maintainn sub division of the company. The role was considered a support engineer role but most of the time it was new development for smaller to medium sized clients.]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2024-09-28T02:47:33+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[Catching Up]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/catching-up" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/158</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[Since my heart attack back in early December I’ve felt like I’ve been perpetually behind. While my body has been healing up I don’t think my psyche has quite recovered. We’ve been struggling for a while with bills. ]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2024-09-29T19:38:42+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[New Links Section + Tutorial]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/new-links-section-tutorial-new" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/159</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[I’ve always liked sharing links of interest but I’m taking that content and putting it on my own site instead of puffing up social media. I’ll still share stuff there too from time to time but this will be the main place I share links from now on. ]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2024-09-29T19:41:53+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[New Theme – Groovy 1976]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/new-theme-groovy-1976" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/160</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[I’ve had the itch to redo my site for a while now. I’m not a designer and I’ve not been super happy with the look of the site and so I decided to do something about it. This new look is inspired by the 1976 Keyset from Pimp My Keyboard.]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2024-09-29T19:42:09+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[Draft Post Disclaimer Plugin]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/draft-post-disclaimer-plugin" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/161</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[My co-worker and friend Sal Ferrarello was telling us in one of our weekly scrums that he uses a draft category to post stuff that might not be quite ready for prime time. ]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2024-09-28T02:48:09+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[Draft Post Disclaimer Test]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/draft-post-disclaimer-test" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/162</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[Posts in the “drafts” category should be considered a work in progress and as such the contents should be used with caution. The goal of having public draft posts is to get content out that may be helpful but with busy lives we don’t always have a chance to review every detail. ]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2024-09-28T02:48:20+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[Goodbye 2019 – Hello 2020]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/goodbye-2019-hello-2020" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/163</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[I’m not usually big on new years resolutions and that’s not going to change today. I’m a fan of goal setting and I do that throughout the year. I like to look at what’s working and what’s not and make adjustments as I go. ]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2024-09-29T19:43:05+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[Serious as a Heart Attack – Surviving the Widow Maker]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/serious-as-a-heart-attack-surviving-the-widow-maker" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/164</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[Let’s not bury the lede here, I just had a heart attack! And not just any heart attack either, it was the widow maker. Let me tell you the story. I’ve been low key not feeling like myself for a long time now.]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2024-09-28T02:48:37+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[What Have I done? – My First BBS]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/what-have-i-done-my-first-bbs" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/165</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[This is the first part in a series of posts I’m writing to document some of my accomplishments in computers/programming. It’s partly to have a little history and partly to remind myself just how much I know. ]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2024-09-29T19:43:35+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[Dusting off the ole blog]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/dusting-off-the-ole-blog" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/166</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[I’m in the process of dusting off the ole blog here so excuse the mess if you find anything wonky – it’s a work in progress. A couple months ago I started working at Maintainn, a division of WebDevStudios and while there are certainly challenges it’s been a ton of fun. ]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2024-09-28T02:48:53+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[Managing Online Forums]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/managing-online-forums" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/167</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[My friend Patrick, whom you probably know from phpBBHacks.com, just announced the launch of his latest project, ManagingCommunities.com. The site targets anyone who runs an online community, though I think anyone who has to manage users would benefit from subscribing. ]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2024-09-28T02:49:01+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[MySQL Search and Replace]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/mysql-search-and-replace" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/168</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[I had to update a link for a client today and most of their content is database driven. This makes it easy to do quick searches and even search and replace. Most databases support this and the syntax is pretty close, but this tip is specifically for MySQL. ]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2024-09-29T21:22:52+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[Quick vi tip: Show Hidden Characters]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/quick-vi-tip-show-hidden-characters" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/169</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[I do a lot of development in linux/unix. In fact, that’s where all my development is, but I spend a fair amount of time in the “CLI” or command line interface. I use putty and ssh in to edit files and look at logs and just generally do what I do. ]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2024-09-28T02:50:04+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[MySQL Disaster Recovery]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/mysql-disaster-recovery" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/170</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[Today I was doing some database work for a client and I had to delete some recent entries from a database. Like a moron, I forgot to add a “where” close and emptied the entire thing! ]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2024-09-29T19:46:26+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[Synchronous Timing Hell]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/hell-yes-it-was-worth-staying-up-most-of-the-night-to-learn-this-and-find-the-solution-this-side-quest-was-epic-but-i-rolled-a-natural-20-and-slayed-the-dragon-im-working-on-a-form-at-work-in-at-filamentphp-which-is-a-tall-stack-app-i-have-a-field-se" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/171</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[HELL YES! It was worth staying up most of the night to learn this and find the solution. This side quest was epic! But I rolled a natural 20 and slayed the dragon.
I'm working on a form at work in @filamentphp which is a TALL stack app. I have a field, serial number. When the user updates that field I was tryin to use the afterStateUpdated() method, which accepts a callback.]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2024-10-12T18:26:48+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[Determinism vs Free Will]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/determinism-vs-free-will" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/172</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[In working on my conceptual model of the universe (Rendered State Cosmology) I've come to the conclusion that free will isn't just an illusion, it's a specialized form of deterministic algorithm. It's transitory and gives us the concept of agency. I'll talk more about consciousness in another post. Let's dive in.]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2025-04-06T05:08:27+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[In the Loom Like a Knot]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/in-the-loom-like-a-knot" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/173</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[In my study of quantum mechanics I am constantly inspired by the deep connections I see. I've been deeply emersed in learning and a poem has been coalescing in my mind and I want to share it with you. I hope you like it. Here's "In the Loom Like a Knot" - an ode to the universe. Click through to check it out and if you like it, let me know!]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2025-04-09T18:47:39+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[Rewiring the Learning Loop - How AI Helped Me Reroute My ADHD Brain]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/rewiring-the-learning-loop-how-ai-helped-me-reroute-my-adhd-brain" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/174</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[Traditional learning methods don't work for me. I'm wired differently. Likewise, my learning style is not typical. With my background in tech and computers I started using AI/Generative AI as soon as it was available. In my line of work it's criminal to not figure out where this new technology fits into our industry and even broader, our lives. This is game changing stuff and I'm excited to have a front row seat.]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2025-04-11T13:29:52+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[Part 1 - The Wayback Machine: How I Wrote Myself Into Being]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/part-1-the-wayback-machine-how-i-wrote-myself-into-being" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/175</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[This is part 1 of 2 of an unexpected journey, the result of exploring how AI, cognitive reflection and my own data can help me understand myself, find the hidden meaning in my work, and recover the voice I thought I had lost. Follow me as I go looking for my data and accidentally resurrected my younger self. ]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2025-04-14T16:52:32+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[Part 2 - The Quantum Mirror: How I Rebuilt Myself From Broken Data]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/part-2-the-quantum-mirror-how-i-rebuilt-myself-from-broken-data" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/176</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[This is Part 2 of 2 where I accidentally stumbled upon a cognitive interface, using my own data as a reflection and discovered my old self and in so doing, found myself more complete than ever before. I hope you enjoy this unexpected journey. It's not over, it's just getting started. 

Photo by <a href="https://unsplash.com/@vincefleming?utm_content=creditCopyText&utm_medium=referral&utm_source=unsplash">Vince Fleming</a> on <a href="https://unsplash.com/photos/shallow-focus-of-person-holding-mirror-Vmr8bGURExo?utm_content=creditCopyText&utm_medium=referral&utm_source=unsplash">Unsplash</a>
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            </summary>
                                    <updated>2025-04-15T18:42:09+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[Why I Dislike Sentimentality (And What That Says About Me)]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/why-i-dislike-sentimentality-and-what-that-says-about-me" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/177</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[I’ve never liked overly sentimental or “cheesy” things, and for a long time I didn’t quite understand why. I used to assume it was just my ADHD being adversarial—rejecting emotional overload, resisting vulnerability, or struggling with emotional transitions. But that wasn’t the whole story. ]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2025-04-16T13:33:49+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[I Wrote Myself Into a Corner: Living With ADHD, Aphantasia, and RSD—This Is the Story I Got Tired of Retelling]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/i-wrote-myself-into-a-corner-living-with-adhd-aphantasia-and-rsd-this-is-the-story-i-got-tired-of-retelling" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/178</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[I've had ADHD my whole life and it's been a difficult road. It's not all bad but it keeps popping up in my life and I'm tired of hiding it, I'm tired of explaining it and I want people to see me as I am. I'm done masking. I'm not broken. And I hope this helps other people get their too. ]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2025-04-18T16:51:03+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[How Could I Not Know I Had Autism?]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/how-could-i-not-know-i-had-autism" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/179</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[I'm 51 and I finally got frustrated enough with the miscommunication, pretending I was something other than me, and not knowing why that I turned my problem solving mind on itself. Through my research and interacting with other people online and talking to people in my life it finally clicked. I thought I had just had ADHD. But I have Autism. How could I not know something one day and the next, know it's true beyond the shadow of a doubt?]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2025-04-21T16:05:14+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
            <entry>
            <title><![CDATA[The Schism - The Gradient of Meaning]]></title>
            <link rel="alternate" href="https://chrispian.com/the-schism-the-gradient-of-meaning" />
            <id>https://chrispian.com/180</id>
            <author>
                <name><![CDATA[Chrispian H. Burks]]></name>
                <email><![CDATA[chrispian@gmail.com]]></email>

            </author>
            <summary type="html">
                <![CDATA[In my search for personal meaning I disovered something that's always bugged me. Something I thought was just me being too picky. Being an enegineering nerd. But it's bigger than that. I don't know what the solution is but being aware of the problem has helped me catch myself and try to do better. In this essay I talk about the enormous gap between meaning and understanding.]]>
            </summary>
                                    <updated>2025-04-23T14:14:03+00:00</updated>
        </entry>
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